I wish I could just rob a bank or make some damn money on my own and just get on an old fashion train with a sun hat and a sun dress, perfect figure, suit cases in hand. Headphones in ears on a beautiful sunny day. Stare out that train window and just go. Pass mountains, towns, meadows, fields, anything. To the countryside or Paris. Somewhere new. Where noone knows my name. Change my name, change my ways, become a movie star, or a gypsy. Be mysterious yet beautiful. Always on the go, never afraid, always ambitious and searching. Adventurous. A strong, independent, motivated woman. I wish I could live up to the vision in my head, be my own person, be who I desperately want to be. Make an impact in peoples lives. Make people miss me, crave me, love me. Have a plan, have a dream. I hate myself, I hate New York, I hate most people. I need a change. I need to grow up.
I want to leave in a studio apartment. Know how to play acoustic, have a kitten, maybe a dog. A one bedroom place with a white down filled comforter a king sized bed just for me. Beside a window over looking a sophisticated town. Or maybe a little cabin in the woods somewhere down South. With a back porch where the deer walk right up to you. Where every star is visible at night and the sound of nature is always around you, perhaps with a husband and 3 kids.
I'm so tired of the city life. The loudness, the rudeness, the constant threat to keep up with society or be made a fool of. The obnoxious lifestyle. The ridiculous view of what perfect is. The visible destroying of our planet. The selfishness.
Get up and go!
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