So I think I might..

pick back up on this.. I mean I'm on Tumblr daily but that's not one for ranting and venting. I need to write, I need to express. I have so much shit bottled up, I'm going to explode and yet I don't know where to start. What to do, how to say it. I'm a mess of unhappy emotion.

I have no one and who I do have I'm no longer sure I want. I need a change of scenery, a change of environment, a change of the world, a change of you, a change of me. I need to be the person I want to be but I don't know how to start.

I need a mentor, I need a guide, I need a friend, I need a soul mate. I want to achieve my goals, live my dreams. I just need this. I don't want to waste my life away. This is not who I want to be.