This is a wake up call
ask yourself who you are
asses the damage thats been done
is it enough to get up and run
this is the last time i'll ever help to mend you
so take what you can get
believe every word that i said
asses the damage thats been done
is it enough to get up and run
this is the last time i'll ever help to mend you
so take what you can get
believe every word that i said
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Just sit back and we'll talk of how lifes been so hard
sit down i could talk the night away
and as the sun goes down, i'll watch you eyes fading out
leaving hope for better days
Just sit back and we'll talk of how lifes been so hard
sit down i could talk the night away
and as the sun goes down, i'll watch you eyes fading out
leaving hope for better days
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So send my best regards, cuz I dont know who you are
and I lost everything I loved, just to move on from what I once was
lets turn a new page, the sun will start a new day
where we learn from our mistakes
and forget all of our old ways
So send my best regards, cuz I dont know who you are
and I lost everything I loved, just to move on from what I once was
lets turn a new page, the sun will start a new day
where we learn from our mistakes
and forget all of our old ways
♥
I don't know who I am anymore. Nor do I think I know anyone else anymore. They say I live in a fantasy world and I need to break from it, but honestly I'd rather live in my fantasy world any day then the shit hole we call our world today. Or maybe it's just NYC that's filled with vile scumbags. At this point I'd give anything to move out of this god forsaken place and start new. I'm not letting anyone influence my life any more. You can live miserably in your world while I stick to mine. In my world I still have faith in love and believe it's what makes you truly happy, I know the definition of such words as loyalty, friendship, and trust. I know anything can be fixed if you have the heart to forgive. I honestly have to big of a heart to be abused in the real world. I live for my family, I put my friends first, and still keep a smile on my face all in all while hating myself, but why do I hate myself? I think I'm a great person, but society makes me feel other wise. I wish I wasn''t so easily hurt and didn't care what others think.
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All I ask for is the friends I need, the ones that will help me when needed, spend a day with me doing nothing, the ones I can talk to about anything, and the ones that encourage you more then discourage you. The friends I used to have, and all I crave for is the right kind of love from the man I love. Protect my family and help me change for the better. I don't know how many nights I have to pray before I get a miracle. I guess if you want something done you have to do it yourself. So please God give me the strength to change the things I can and accept the things I can't. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to feel alone in a room full of people. I don't want to have to compete for my friends or beg for my boyfriend's attention. What's so wrong with me? Why do I have an aura that pushes everyone away when all I want is to pull them close.
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I need to better myself. Turn myself into the person I want to be. Fix the mess I have created and no one is going to do it for me. It's every man for themselves. I can't find comfort in a relationship or lean on my friends. This is all my doing.
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I need a self cleansing day. I wish I had my car so I could go get a book from the library then lay out in the sun and relax. Maybe tomorrow. I just want to get away. Where noone knows me and I can be someone new, meet someone new. I need change. I honestly think there are nicer people in the world then whom I surround myself with and maybe it'll be the motivation that I need. When you associate yourself with a certain group, you become accustomed to that life style. I need to break free and show them all!
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It's really hard when all at once everyone you revolved yourself around starts to
disappoint you at the same time. Who do you turn to?
Love and kisses; ♥
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