Left Notes By Your Bedpost.

I'll start off with saying. I take back what I said about people not caring when you do. Some actually do and they thank you for it:]

Good morning everyone, I slept 3 hours today, and woke up feeling beyond horrible. Physically and emotionally. Physically I am now allergic as hell to God knows what and emotionally because I now know why _ _ _ _ _ _ is mad at me and it kills me because I knew I never deserved her in the first place and now this proves it. I'm so fucking selfish I swear.

I'm half asleep as I type bare with me. I haven't slept much at all lately, My immune system feels low, I'm on edge about everything, cutting myself off from people once again and just plain stressed. I need a good getaway, a good friend, a non drama filled pamper filled day. I need to feel amazing, and care free, and beautiful. I want to soar like a bird and break free of the captivities of my mind. I don't want to worry, to care, I want to be me again.

Do you ever miss your childhood? Wish you could go back and savor every moment, where nothing mattered, Santa Clause was real, the only "game" you played was Monopoly. The only girls you pimped were Barbie and her pals. Your latest drama was your best friend beating you in tic tac toe. I miss the simple things. The little things that use to make me happy. Nothing seems good enough these days and it's ridiculous for me to even think people have to size up. Who the fuck am I? However it is in my horoscope to feel that way. Speaking of horoscope, let me check out today's cus the way I'm feeling it can't be too good.

Daily:"You didn't set out looking for romance; quite the contrary. But it seems like romance might have found you. Before the friendships that could become intimate relationships go too far, you should probably check with the other person involved to make sure that you're on the same track."

Love: At the moment, you're as close to being a human transmitter as possible. You really do have antennae, and they really are quite powerful. Use this temporary super-power, but you know the rules: you can only do good. No selfish aims allowed. Listen to that voice in the back of your head.

Mm, both having to do with Love. Anyway, perhaps I'll try to fall back asleep? I don't know.

I have a fascination with the sea lately. Isn't that chandelier lovely? and check out this stud. Little sailor:]. Find me a nice boy in that and I'm sold :D


It's like I can never wake up to anything except bullshit hahaha. So I did end up falling asleep and you know what I wake up too. "_ _ _ _ _ _ _ living a lie" apparently he's gay and he's been trying to fight the feelings cus he's head over heels in love with me but he can't fight them anymore. heh, thanks.

^ LMFAO!!!!! FUCK RP seriously! When it becomes so addicting that it's your real life seriously stop. OMG. matthew chambers you fake!!!

that's all folks.