Left Notes By Your Bedpost.

So, My Mom is the best :D. I don't know how she does it but she just knows. Hawaiian Punch, I mentioned it a few blogs back and my craving for it, has not been in my house for years. I mean it years and not once have we mentioned to buy it. I swear I woke up this morning to Hawaiian Punch in my fridge. WHY?! How do you know! lol. I love her. Along with that she bought me a shit ton of mac & cheese my latest craving. White castle, another and my old time favorite tri-color pasta:]. She does too much for me<3 style="text-align: center;">
I got my hair cut today. Finally, was much needed and I straightened it, it's been awhile. It feels nice. Hopefully tomorrow or Friday we should be doing some shopping. I need to find some sweet thrift stores in the city. I found a ton of cute outfits, try to go for that style for sure:].
Here's some.








On a bad note, as always there's a bad note. Two bad notes actually.My sister's friend died today and she broke out crying in the middle of the hair salon. I did too. I didn't know the kid but seeing my sister hurt broke my heart. I try to be close to her, we're not very close. I want to protect her. I don't want her to experience heartache, fist fights, break-ups, death, drama, perves, strangers, anything. I've been through it all and I feel tough, I feel like at times it had me down but I feel I handled everything pretty well. I don't know if she's tough, I don't know if she can do it and I want to help her. I want to fix it all. I don't want her to be lost when it happens. :/. I cried. I held her as she cried and I cried. I don't want her hurting

and _ _ _ _ _ _ is mad at me. Like dead mad. She deleted me on myspace, blocked me on aim, and wont answer me at all. I don't know what I did. What can I do? I'm all the way in New York. Unless, she read this blog and is heartbroken over _ _ _ _ _ _ _.... I don't Know. :/ I love that girl with everythin I have. I dont want to lose her :/ I can't. I love you if you're reading this. Please.

I don't know what to do with myself. I've gained weight, I want to lose it, but I won't take any notions towards it. I want to be what I want to be, but I won't change myself into it. I need change.

Fuck.