Left Notes By Your Bedpost.

I'm losing all hope in humanity. It seems things are getting worse and worse, and porobably will continued until December 2012 when we're all suppose to end. I wouldn't be suprised if this is our warning. If we're taking advantage and bringing it closer instead of doing right and trying to earn our keep.

As I've said before; the world is a beautiful gift. It's keeping us alive for fucks sake and all we do to reward it is fuck it up, ruin it's beauty, destroy each other, hurt it's creatures, kill it's nature. We strive on money, power, drugs, sex and alcohol and we do anything to acomplish it. I didn't lie when I bawled to Yuliana about "Hippies being nice" I want to find one of those towns like the creepy ones in the movies, where everyones so smiley and happy and knows eachother. Yeah, theres always a serial killer in the mix but I'd like to live in one of those. I"m so tired of the filth and scum I see around me everyday.

In the past week I have heard some of the most sickening stories, child abuse, kidnappings, killings, and rapes, animal abuse, hate crimes. I don't see the need for it. That could be your mother, daughter, sister, brother, father, son, cousin, best friend, boyfriend, girlfriend. If animals could talk they would be just like us. My cat is my baby... she gets the same treatment if not better then you fucks even deserve but because they can't stop us we can crush their heads and hang them. You are all fucking sick. Everyone has as much fucking right to live as you do.

Thirteen year olds getting high every night. Pre-teens losing their virginity. People drinking till they can't function. Domestic abuse, robberies, causing trouble, littering whatever. Any little thing counts. Police abusing their rights. Punks beating up bums cus they can. Graffitti. Is anything fucking nessecery. Let gays marry! Let people believe what they want to believe!
Blind yourself of color and race, gender, and age, orientation and looks. Discrimination is a horrible thing. You think you're perfect enough to judge someone. We all have a flaw.

You can't change the world but you can take steps too. Every killing is wasting someone who could be something great. Abortion. That baby could have saved your life...or someone elses...

This simple was branded on homosexuals during the holocaust.

Tomorrow is Oct. 20. A day to honor the 10 gay kids who commited suicide. I don't see why we even have to honor something like this. People don't see it from different views. Just their own. They feel marriage should be between a man and a woman, or how could they reproduce? Or how would their kids grow up? What they don't see is this is no better then slavery. This is no better then colored bathrooms and the back of the bus. Two woman or two men can show the same amount of compassion as a normal married couple. A man and a woman who hate eachother have more of a right to get married then two gays who are madly in love and they don't have a say? Why because the bible says so? Not everyone goes by the bible and God is also known to not hate anyone so you're contradicting yourself. Different people are attracted to different things and if you may not know, some of which are homosexual feel they were born the wrong gender, call it a mental illness or whatever you want but it can't be cured! You can't turn someone straight and it's not a disease. You closed minded fucks need to see, that if you give and take a little we could all be happy. You're wedding day is the happiest day of your life. How can you take that awaty from someone? How can you be disgusted by two people in love just cus they are the same gender? Love is a beautiful thing. LET IT HAPPEN!

I want to start one of these.. Start writing all my dreams and goals down and put them in a wishing jar of some sort. Of course none of them will come true unless I make them but maybe having one will motivate me more. Maybe each day I'll pull one out and see if it happened yet, or make it happen. Maybe I'll make a nice project out of this.. I need something to do. I can get pretty paper and markers and glitter. A nice jar and do it up nice and every night I'l pray something in my wish jar will come true..

I love the little things in life and I"m sure others do too.. why can't we alll. Why must everything be so stressfull and hard? We have enough going on with natural causes, diseases, weather, accidents, why add to it? Why cause more stress and damage that we don't need?

Why do I feel like crying?...I hate this. I want to change the world and help everyone and be someone in life, but i don't know where to start cus there's nothing motivational around me.. just more shit.